Sunday, September 11, 2011

9/11/01 to 9/11/11

I have been watching all the shows about the 10th anniversary of 9/11. I am glad to see the memorials coming to shape around the country. I have a new hope to be able to go visit those sites.  I went to Ground Zero when I was in New York in 2008 but they have made so much progress on the memorial that it doesn't even look like the same place.  I keep remembering when I was there how enclosed the area was. I don't know if I got there the back way because I was lost or not but the streets seemed small and closed in. It was hard not to stand in that spot and picture that horrible giant cloud rushing through those streets and how that cloud indicated the loss of hope for saving so many. Now we have to find out hope in other things and that is what is so wonderful about being an American - the freedom to do so!

Here are my pics from that trip related to visit to Ground Zero.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

So Much To Do So Little Time

When I first lost my job, I was very peaceful about everything and felt very confident that God had a plan for what I was to do and where I was to go. I have had a wonderful time of self exploration and have made some decisions on some things but as usual with my personality traits, I think I have overloaded myself and taken the plan back into my hands instead of leaving it in God's hands. I have so many thoughts running through my head and so many things I want to do and I want to do them all and all of them at the same time and all of them perfectly :-) Does anyone else out there run into the same problems? These are some of the things I want to do and as SOMEONE(!) recently told me I only have 30 years left to live (she may not have that long after that statement - LOL) :

■go on missionary trip

■photography/do book

■nonprofit for the animals

■making stained glass

■throwing pottery

■so many movies, tv shows, and books to be read

■travel, travel, travel

■exercise/get in shape - take time to ride my bike that I got for my many years of service at MSHH/Gentiva but have never taken time to ride yet

■build a house

■landscape my yard + make walking paths on rest of my land

■make my ebay & insurance assessments profitable enough to support me

■go back to college to study something I want to study

■get good at winning contests, sweeps, etc.

■keep up with my emails, podcasts, friends on facebook & twitter

■keep up with regular chores around the house along with bigger projects around the house

■And much much more that I can't think of right now which is probably good :-)

And right now what I am working on my to do list daily to do only touches six of those things but of course all of those things are still flying around in my head :-)
SOOOOO sometimes when I get overwhelmed and anxious I get frozen other times I get fired up to get things done. Until about the last week I have been getting lots done but this past week has been rough. I was praying about it this morning and asking God to give me peace and to give me strength to let go and not try to keep taking the reins from Him when He knows best. One of the verses I read today was the following which is spot on especially considering that is exactly what I have been doing and of course when a person is not getting sleep that makes everything else worse:

"It is vain for you to rise up early, to take rest late, to eat the bread of anxious toil - for He gives blessings to His beloved in sleep" Psalm 127:2

So very appropriate and reassuring-Thank you, God for the message :-) my focus needs to return to the Lord.......


Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Current Hope/Dream

My biggest current hope/dream is to "find" a way that I will love of making money to support myself. I know this is the hope/dream of millions of people but we are only on this earth for one go so why not keep trying to find what is right for right now. So my mind is spinning and searching and wondering and praying regarding what path my life will take next. I have had some major changes at times in the past and for about 18 years or so my job was a fairly steady constant that I didn't need to worry about but that has changed. I am ready for a change though so not sure what will happen next but I am open and excited to see what it will be :-)